Life right now

I finally have become excited for this baby to come.. So with that I am more fearful than EVER!! He has started moving, so if I can't feel him for 12 hours or more I start freaking out. Like today I got to the point where I called the drs office to go in for an ultrasound because paranoia sunk in.. Five min after calling he starts kicking me, of course right? I am only 20 weeks so it isn't going to be consistent anyway. I just needed to vent.. Deep inside I know everything is going to be perfect but it is hard to stay positive. I have 2 1/2 weeks until my next ultrasound, wish me luck! :)